A year and a half ago, I started attending meetings of Sexaholics Anonymous. There were already other Latter-day Saints at the meetings. They quickly helped me see that I had finally found a place where I could overcome the sex and pornography addiction that had grown progressively worse over my life and nearly killed me.
I entered recovery–for real this time. I got sober as I worked the 12 Steps, attended lots of meetings, got a sponsor and made phone calls to other men who were further along in recovery than I was. As I grew in recovery, I began to experience true joy and happiness for probably the first time in my life. I began to realize that the Gospel looked different and much more hopeful when I had found a solution to my problem. It was wonderful and I wanted to share it.
I started writing, and a few months later, I had written a book about the Latter-day Saint experience getting sober from sex and pornography addiction entitled Sitting in a Rowboat Throwing Marbles at a Battleship. It’s a great book! You can download a copy for free here. You can buy a hard copy at Blurb.com. If you want, you can read all of the essays individually here on this website. It will change the way you see addiction just as it’s changing the way Latter-day Saints understand and deal with sex and pornography addiction.
So now we have this website. It’s actually one of kind. It fills an enormous void in the dialog out there among the Latter-day Saints about the “pornography problem.” It does things a bit differently than the other websites. RowboatAndMarbles.org tells the story for an LDS audience in a unique way: from the eyes of the recovering addict. We talk about the roots of addiction, the lies of addicts, and the hope for recovery. And then we talk about what recovery looks like and feels like.
As I said, all of this is from the perspective of the recovering addict. It’s not from the standpoint of the mental health professional or the General Authority or the LDS Family Services counselor. What you will find here is the testimony of those who have been to hell and lived to tell about it. They know that recovery from sex and pornography addiction is possible because they’ve experienced that very recovery! The Atonement of Christ is real to them and it expresses itself in the hope that emanates from everything you’ll read on this site. Thanks for visiting.